post retreat thoughts

The retreat was really raelly good for me. I enjoyed myself and I was really really blessed from it. There's alot to say, alot that i've learnt over the course of this retreat, so much so that i don't really know where to begin!
First things first, this retreat was good because i think i went with the right heart, prepared and really really wanting to hear God's voice and be in God's presence. I guess one good application then would be for subsequent retreats, may I have that same desire. Camps and retreats shouldn't be about being with church friends, but being with God and meeting God. I also decided that I don't think retreats are much "fun", they can be good, blessing, fruitful, but not really fun.
I'll start with my lesson in faith. Before the retreat, the whole time I was praying though whether or not to go on missions, and even at home I struggled with alot of questions. I'm glad that i struggled through them, and that i even dared to ask myself or others these questions. He who seeks, finds. My conclusion during the retreat is that I didn't find all the answers, but i come away feeling okay, not frustrated. There has to be a point where the questions stop and faith jumps in (or i jump in with faith, as the case may be). I know that God is good, but i'm not thoroughly convinced. Somehow, i believe as i commit, as i surrender, God will show and convince me. Faith.
Another thing I learnt is that if one wants to hear God, or touch God, one only has to listen and feel. DUH right? It was a huge revelation to me at that point because the whole time i was relying on hearing God's voice when the preacher prayed, or praying for God to speak and constantly pleading with Him. I mean i was trying so hard to listen, i wasn't really listening. So I kept quiet, and God said listen and Feel. And I did. And I felt God's presence and heard His Voice.
Two other things i thought about while praying were my selfishness, pride and my lack of courage. I really still need to pray through these things, and i need prayer support for them too.
Yeah. I kinda want to talk about post retreat attitude and behaviour but class starts in abit. so.... gotta run.